Regroup / Reflect

So here it is 8/8 Year of Our Lord, 2010.

I’m hitting something of a psychic impasse here – not sure if it’s down to being interested in making movies now – so spending time on that… or trying to do 7 freelance jobs at the same time… or… dunno. I’ve been doing this here blog for about 2 years (I think) now – started off making a couple of posts a day. Am now lucky if I make one a week.

The blog I was writing before this – I suddenly just went “Fait Accomplit” and stopped doing it.

Another thing is that I wrote my own RSS client which basically aggregates all of my feeds into a thing that looks like Opera’s rendition of RSS… but it pulls in videos and images as well… basically presents a (beautiful) magazine of stuff that I’m interested in. It sits on my local machine… I’m the only one that sees it. But… having done that, re-blogging stuff now seems a bit echo-machiney. Unless I’m adding or interpreting, I don’t really feel like there’s a lot of point – my initial breathless excitement having waned a little.

I think I’d like to see some big movements – or focus on tectonics, rather than the flotsam and jetsam that rides on the top. I’m also a little tired of “Inspirational Speaking” being the new rock and roll. I think someone (not me) should go through all the TED videos and compare the Standing-Ovation-Quotient with the And-Then-Fuck-All-Happened Quotient. Because I’m getting a fairly strong sense that there are a lot of standing ovations – for what should be world-changing shit… and nothing’s happening. I’m sick of this whole aspirational self-help-book vibe. Someone on twitter a couple of days back said “Money is a random coincidental by-product of doing what you love“. Oh yeah. People love that stuff. Pity it’s bullshit.

Another thing is that I’m losing interest in the Nerdosphere. The Geekosphere. There aren’t any women in it. There are one or two, but… nowhere near enough. Most of my main drinking-buddies have been women. I don’t share this nerdoid-stepford-wife take on women that a lot of the geekosphere seems to have. I miss the perception and social-cunning.

Maybe I’m just burnt-out. It’s been on the cards for a while.

So… where to from here?

Dunno. Regroup.